Friday, July 18, 2008

Royally Shut Down.

Probably the best phrasing I could possibly use to describe my interaction with Mark today. Utter disaster.

I called, and he didn't answer. Then there was a text from him that said "Do you need something?" At that point, I suspected he knew it was me--but how is that possible? I didn't get my cell until a year after we broke up. So, I called again, and he answered. I got one 'Hello', and I launched into this completely awkward monologue about this call being random but I wanted to make things right, etc. (In actual fact, I wrote out a little speech about a month ago, but I lost it. I. Am. Pathetic.) I get to about ten seconds into my yammering and pause. The line is dead. He's (assumedly) hung up on me, which leaves me simultaneously hurt and pissed.

So, I decided to send him a text that said something to the effect of: "I wanted to apologize, I hope you can meet me halfway on this, blahblah, let's talk, blahblahpenancecakes."

No reply (duh), so, I guess that's that.

Anticlimactic as balls, man. The silence is the worst.

2 comments:

Andrea said...

ugggghhh
That is so frustrating. At least you can be reassured by the fact that you did all you could do. Good for you for trying to keep the peace.

Abby said...

i think the most important thing in situations like this is to realize that making yourself understood is not always that important (but i make the mistake of thinking it is all the time). it feels weird to let stuff go sometimes because it feels like that's copping out, but in a lot of cases is it's really the best thing you can do.