Monday, May 4, 2009

Just when I need a Pick-Me-Up, one arrives in the form of 'Making an Ex Feel Bad"

Chase texted me last night at 1:29 AM. Now, he hasn't tried to contact me since before I left for Italy, so I was surprised to wake up to his message, sent from a new number:

C: hey, it's chase. whats up?
A: not much--wondering why you're tipsy-texting me at 1:30 AM.

He got back to me around lunch time, and asked how I was and what I was up to, which I answered as briefly as I could, and politely returned the questions, inquiring specifically about The Cafe, because I know he quit over Alli, but I didn't mention that part. Finally, I asked him directly why he was texting me, and this was the answer:

C: I'm random like that I guess. Just wanted to check up on you.

Like I'm the one who needs to be "looked after". In other news for him, his sister is engaged to the manager at The Sharp Edge, and they've only been dating since the fall! (Another engagement for me to chalk up, by the way!) But I won't go off on an early engagement tangent.

Naturally, I asked if he was seeing anyone, and he said no. I left it with a 'fair enough', knowing that he was DYING for me to ask, and soon enough:

C: That was a rollercoaster of emotion let me tell u

Ta-da.

A: Alli?
C: yep
A: well, maybe you've learned your lesson with her for good now.
C: Yes I certainly have
A: glad to hear it! was it the same old run around?
C: Yea pretty much. She has severe trust issues so no one stands a chance really. She's a train wreck and she burned me badly
A: again, or are we referring to the previously known times? (I'm mean :D)
C: Again
A: dating you alongside a few other boys again?
C: I think so
A: what made her start dating you again? the last time we spoke she'd shut you down.
C: I don't honestly know. She said I was being myself again.
A: as opposed to what? how were you acting that was out-of character? not fawning over her?
C: haha, maybe. She's just bad for me.
A: hm. well, I won't say I told you so (SO MEAN.)
C: U can if u want
A: Well, I told you so. now you can know and can move on. (YES. FEELS SO GOOD TO BE RIGHT.)
C: I am sorry about what happened
A: honestly chase, you did me a favor. not that i don't think you're a good guy, but you were all wrong for me. i've learned and a experienced things i wouldn't have if we hadn't broken up.
C: Why was I all wrong?
A: because you're not mature enough for me yet. everything about you was full steam ahead, but you aren't ready to make the commitments you promise. and you weren't even interested in me enough to commit for longer than a month, so.
C: I'm a little wild still (Oh, please.)
A: well, that wasn't for me. and i can't say i have any portion of responsibility for things not working out. i'm a great girlfriend and a great girl. but i wasn't for you for some reason, either
C: I never blamed u, u were perfect (You bet your ass.)
A: but not who you wanted, and that's fine.
C: okay then

And there we are--case closed, hopefully for good. I told Chase that he did me a favor, and I got the 'perfect girlfriend' compliment I know I deserved out of that ridiculous relationship.

There are a lot of links in this entry. Man. Nothing like saying what needs to be said.

Love you all--

-A.

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