I owe my landlady $1250 in back rent. I got a $900 loan from my godmother a few months ago for part of the larger debt. I kept both of these things a secret from my mom for four months, which was stupid, I know, but I know how stressful her life is already.
The emotional breakdown I had this week was largely to do with this debt, and the fact that I had plans to move to a new place with Betsy and had the new deposit and slightly more expensive rent to worry about, etc. made me seize with a panic so intense I could barely see straight.
This afternoon, my mom began asking me questions about the new lease and the deposit and how I would pay and jobs, which sent me into a decision--I could lie and evade about the debt, or I could tell her and maybe get some real help. So, I told her. She wasn't mad, just frustrated that I left her out of it for so long.
We decided, tentatively, for me to move home and pay off the debt without worrying about rent or bills. It sucks that I won't be living as close to John as I'd hoped to, but this is more important right now. We'll still be together, after all--there's no changing that.
Feels good to get that off my chest.
-A.
1 comment:
I'm so glad you told your mom. I'm so glad you finally have such a burdensome thing off your mind (at least partially). You'll "git 'r done," as they say, and everything will be great--being apart from John will be hard but I know you two can do it.
Love you.
A.
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