OKAY SERIOUSLY.

Chase just texted me. Just 'Hello'. It's 2 AM. This is real-time updating.

Him: Hello.
Me: Hi. (WTF?!)
Him: What are you up to?
Me: Working a grave. Can I help you?
Him: I got your letter.
Me: I figured.
Him: Yeah, it was severe.
Me: Oh, I'm sorry. Did I hurt your feelings? (SERIOUSLY.)
Him: No, but it was clear enough.
Me: Did you have something to say in response?
Him: What can I say?
Me: Well, you obviously had something in mind or else you wouldn't be texting me.
Him: Not so. (SRSLY.)
Me: Then why did you text? Just to confirm that you got the letter?
Him: Just my respectful nature. (SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!)
Him: Yeah, it was quicker than a letter back that I know you wanted.
Me: Honestly, Chase, I wasn't counting on a response. I think I was concise. Did you find room for much argument?
Him: Tons.
Me: Oh, do tell. (Of course he wants the fucking last word.)
Him: Yeah, I shouldn't have said a few things and I'm sorry I did.


Okay, he called. This is great.

So he was wishy-washy at first, talking about my 'severe' letter, and calling it 'rude', but when I finally pinned him down to answer specifics, he backed down and said I was right and very fair in the letter. Surprise, surprise. We talked about my grieving process and his progress with Alli (which has basically been this: "I love you." "Oh, I'm not actually sure. I have a few other boyfriends right over there." "Okay, I'll wait patiently like that puppy dog I've always been." Apparently their short-term goal is to start dating. Rather, HIS short-term goal. And THAT is what he left me for.)

The whole conversation was a lot of talking in circles about my being hurt, and him sounding like he felt pretty guilty. I hope he does. He was careless and indelicate. I told him so. And he seemed to agree. He was taken aback, I think, by my willingness to wish him luck with Alli. Honestly, if he's willing to stand around and wait for her attention-whoring self, then they deserve each other. It's Paul Jeffe and Liz Hays all over again. Sheesh. Our call got cut off thanks to his shitty phone battery. I don't know if he intends to call me back tomorrow, but it doesn't make that much of a difference.

Weirdly enough, he texted as I started to read all the entries that he's tagged in here.

Honestly, I forgive Chase, but it stuns me that he's choosing this. Well, I guess if this is what he wants, I'm okay with letting him take it.

All right, that's enough of that. *dusts off hands*

Love you all, muah!

-Alyssa